Finally the much awaited day has come and gone. and though it lasted for one day i learnt many things.
I met him after his work attachment thingy ard 7ish there.. things werent going so well. i suppose i was pms-ing bad. but i cant fully push the blame to that.. sighs. if only i cld go back to the time i met him.
he tried so much to cool me down and everything else. even made me sit down in Kopititam and came back with a bouquet of flowers saying it was specially wrapped. but i still wasnt happy. at some point of time, i didnt even know why i was angry in the first place. maybe becoz things dint happen as planned. but so what..as long im with him ..thats what matters most, right?
sadly, i took too late to realise that. i cldnt care abt the bouquet.. so many things happened. i realized that i had made the day bad for him. if only i had simmered down..everything wld be fine. if only..
But despite me behaving like a first-class bitch, this stupid crazy bf of mine, still declares that he loves me to bits. Now tell me, isnt he annoyingly sweet?
i dont know if u guys know of this saying, The good guys get the bitches and the bad guys get good girls. i definitely belong to the former.
im probably the worst gf he cld ever get. but he will never ever agree to that. sometimes i really wonder, 2 years down the road, what did he actually see in me? and why? why me of all people?
i always ask him that, and his reply..? "Ur worth it baby."
Now, no point crying over spilt milk, im gona be good and make it up to him in the best way. after all, he deserves it. Im gonna give him a surprise. and its all gonna be worth it.
why?
because i love him so much. because his love never waivered. because no matter how much i scold him, ignore him, treat him like dirt, he still comes back to me and says im the best gf one cld ever get.
and i think he deserves the best.
Moving on, Panguni is coming up and as usual prayers here and there.
and now back to project time...
Labels: love
Monday, March 26, 2007 // 9:50 PM
And so the boyfriend and i headed down to Bugis and Suntec. It was then when we realized that in our whole time of being together we have never been to these two places. Heh. But the trip to Bugis turned out good as i got myself a bag. Finally, after a long time of searching in alot of places. Love itt!
Headed to Suntec as we wanted to eat in Marche. But it turned out it wasnt there anymore. lol. I dint even know it wasnt there. That shows how long i have not been to Suntec. Also, we were quite surprised to find Muthu's Curry and decided to head there. Had a good dinner and on the way back, decided to get myself 'The five people you meet in heaven' book. Been reading it ever since and its damn good.
Sighs, im supposed to be doing my project but as u can see im blogging. i have to start sooner or later or im dead meat. sighs.
Shamini has been a rather angsty girl for the past few days. Snapping at waiters..bf.. people basically. grrr. and its exactly 1hr to my 2nd yr anni. Cant waittt. :)
just another random entry.
Maybe i will publish another one later.
ok someone shoot me. thanks.
Sunday, March 25, 2007 // 7:45 AM
Hmm..so as i said the test is over. SIGHS.
Managed to squeeze in time after my pilates class to meet my bestie... it was good catching up with her like god knows how long.. she managed to get like a good lecture out of me. heh. hey im not a bad bestie. i got both of us same t-shirts from Stich.
Ydae went out with Gaya to get some stuffs. I got for him something with the help of Gaya.. but i guess thats not gona be all. She got this really cool bla bla.. i cant say anything coz u might never know who's reading ur blog. lol. but it was really nice. and, it was also good catching up with her. :)
Recently, i have been getting real annoyed pretty fast with the public. i dont understand why but i get so angry that i visualise myself hitting them (sth like Ally). hahhaa. but, they get onto my nerves.
Seriously, i dont understand why people like to 'show off" their whatever songs in their hp by actually blasting it off loud so that other people can hear. Omg, its soo irritating. and the best they can even sing along to it oblivious to the stares they are getting everywhere. urrgh. To add on, they play it louder knowing that ur looking at them. Fine, we know ur carrying the new phone with all the latest songs but please keep it to yourself. we really dont need to know what kinda genre of music u listen to and pretty please, im sure you people know whats the headset for? Those kinda hp accessories would come handy for you guys. So please, do us all a favour and listen to ur songs to yourself!
Also, people who dont know why the poles are fixed in the mrt. These nonchalant people always chooses the peak time to rest their backs on the poles so that others cant use. SO irritating. One such incident took place ydae when i was travelling back home and the mrt was quite crowded. i moved in to the middle pole there and stood. Then this two old chinese couple. well not so old, but yeah they came in and stood at the pole itself.
They started talking real loud and not only that the chinese man went on to lean his back on the pole..which means he was leaning on my damn hand!! and the best part, his stupid belt was so pokey that i had to take my hand off and put it higher..obviously i didnt care if his back was there. i needed to support myself. But the chinese lady, no, she was dancing in the train. she just cldnt stand straight. she moved infront. then moved back, stepping on my toe!! and of coz, she din feel because the both of them were engrossed in a really deep and LOUD conversation. and her big bag kept hitting me. oh god. disastrous. best part, i cant move to anywhere..coz it was crowded.
i got so mad that i visualised myself hitting the guy and the lady.. and all sorts of nasty stuffs hahaha. thank god they got off in one of the earlier stops. sheesh. and pls, i do not need anger management class. these pple just provoke me into thinking like that. *look of innocence*
Going for tuition soon and out later. Hopefully today turns out better for i have not been having a good week. :)
2 more days to go!
Friday, March 23, 2007 // 8:24 PM
haiz. so the test is over. and yes i did plenty of stupid mistakes. and as usual brain dead.
haiz
HAIZ!!
hopefully i can pass. well, thats the least i can hope for. Surprisingly, i happened to bump into my baby today before going to sch. heh.
HAIZ.
m looking forward to Friday though. going shopping with Gayathri. heh. :) Hopefully i can find the things im looking for. lalala.
6 days to go. Cant wait!!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007 // 2:46 AM
Well well.. been a while.. nothing much has been going on.
Next week's my test and im dead. Also, my project submission is due in a couple of weeks time and i m yet to start on it. Im so screwed. grr. Cant wait for all of this to be over.
On the other hand, my man and i are on a movie marathon. heh. Went to watch Primeval last week and today watched 300. Both movies were nice but the latter was the best. Damn good. Though intially i thought i wasnt gona like it as it was basically about Action. But it proved me wrong. Very Very Nice. :)
Saw the trailers for The Reaping and The Messengers..cant wait to watch these. and not forgetting Music and Lyrics with my bestie.
Speaking about her, im glad that she has graduated from ITE and is going to go on to a new phase of life. I wish her all the best and the strength to face whatever challenges life has in store for her. and I miss her. :(
Our 2nd anniversary is coming up in 2 weeks time. thinking about it now, i never imagined we wld be together for this long. Not because i dint have faith or my bf isnt good to me.. He's one of the best bf one cld ever get. Its just that i quit fast..make decision in haste. Etime there's a problem i result in breaking up, but my bf is totally different. He tends to hold on stronger during these times proving that..our r/s is so much more than to breaking up over trivial issues.
Hah. Thats something i still ought to learn from him. and one more thing to learn, Patience. heh.
I think my bestie wld agree to this. She thinks im the worst gf one cld get. lol.
I dont know what to get nor where to bring him also. You see, we made this decision. On the actual date, he will make the plans and on another day i'll do it. Anyone got any good suggestions on what to get and where to go, pls private msn me? Many thanks.
Oh, its been really tiring to look around for bags. Cant find something that satisfies me. Im finding for something that can fit in books, clothes..and stuffz. Im gona look in Bugis also. Anyone who knows of a good bag shop, do let me know aye?
Ok im just gona end this post with some pics. Happy viewing.
and 300 is a damn good movie. and im screwed for my test and project.
<- i look pregnant, dont i? :(
Wednesday, March 14, 2007 // 8:37 AM
Its been a long time..hah.. and theres quite a few interesting updates abt my life.. which i know is not a concern to most..but its MY blog. heh.
first up, well during CNY went to watch Little Children. Baby didnt really like the movie. But for me, the movie was quite good..Kate Winslet's acting was a winner.. and Jennifer.. gorgeous as ever. I liked the roles though, high-flying wife whose husband takes care of the daily chores and the son, 'cheating' husband whose wife has many problems of her own and not forgetting her daughter. why i put the inverted commas? because, this husband doesnt cheat literally, meaning, goes on to have some rompy sex session with prostitutes or whoever..but instead, he orders lingerie from this porn star's website and smells it..has her photos infront of him and masturbates. the best part is he does it at the comfort at his home without locking the door. how smart? and what happens if u be this 'smart'? u get CAUGHT! i tell u..no wife wld want to be in that situation. and yeah, we have mr flasher,Ronnie who got caught for flashing at children and resides in the neighbourhood. But he himself is a child, who later punishes himself grossly after his mom's death.
the famous red swimsuit which she wore for mostly half of the film. heh. however, this movie did remind me of 'Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna"..the main story abt cheating spouses..suspicion and the roles of spouse.
Another movie was The Pursuit of Happyness. and it was one helluva movie i tell u. For those who have not watched, please do so!!mIt's really an inspiring movie..Will Smith's acting was impeccable and Jr.Smith, Jayden stole my heart. What i really liked about the movie was the bond between the father and son. The father whose life is screwed up coz he cant sell his Bone-Density scanner to hospitals and his car gets towed away or wheel-clamped because he parked it outside a hospital..he has overdue rents, bills and his wife decides to leave him for good. Sighs.. what is overwhelming is his will-power, determination and his belief of nothing is impossible. Also, i loved the parts on how he never lets his son suffer his plight.. and still strives to give him the best.
The scene i love most was the part..where both of them will get chased out of the motel and have nowhere to sleep and end up at the train station. Even then, he manages to make his son believe that his scanner is a time-machine by acting out that there were dinosaurs all around them and they needed to get to a safer place. The son decided to follow suit and act together with his dad..and they went to the toilet. Will then locked the door..sat down and had his son lie on his lap as his son was sleeping and he din want anyone to open and disturb. It was then, seeing his state..he broke down.. especially when someone tried to open the door but cldnt..and starting banging and knocking..he quickly covered his son's ears and tried to hold back the door.. trying hard not to cry out. Sighs. that scene was really emotional. In fact, many parts were. All in all, this was one damn good movie..and to add on its based on a true story. :)
And, i got a new phone! thanks to the starhub voucher my dad got. heh. Also, im now sitting at the comfort of my room and blogging! lol. nope the desktop is still at the comp room.. upgraded my scv and got the lappie.. kinda heavy but at least..it will be of some use now.. lol.
oooh. i found a real good pair of shoes in Charles and Keith. but cldnt get the size and colour at Bishan so reserved one in Wdls. heh. im also finding real good pair of slip-ons..anyone knows of a good shoe shop..please do tag me!!
Ydae headed to Downtown East as Punetha akka's family were having a chalet. went there in the evening and had loads of fun..haha.. too bad i had to leave as i had tuition today.. but nvm there's always a next time!
btw, its becoming more frightening to read the papers each day.. students collapsing while running and then later dying..9yr old gives birth. God..im freaked out a lil by this anonymous death..stealing our lives while we are asleep..or being sportingly active. You dont even know whether u get to live the next day. Guess, we just have to make the most out of each day. About the 9yr old girl.. i really got no comments. Firstly, these kiddos have no other things to experiment about isit? and i wonder howwwww? sheesh.
Oh, and Congrats to NUS Vidiyal on bagging the first prize of the Dhool Competition. Diversity was mind-blowing ..and Acidhouz..i preferred the 2nd dance segment. Well, hardwork has finally been paid off aye?
Before i leave, I would like to say a BIG LOVE YOU to ALL..for you might never know whats gona happen tom. so yeah. love u darlings. and you of coz. :)
Sunday, March 04, 2007 // 7:25 AM