Death. One helluva sneaky bastard. It just teaches you to appreciate the people around you more as you will never know when your loved ones are going to go.
Money. The silent killer. It can always ruin whatever relationship you have with that person; especially if you lend that person.
Love. One of life's greatest feeling. Like what Naseem said its always better to love a person who loves you twice as much as you love them. And I think that's so true.
To You,
You have so much of faith in our relationship. More than me. I am ashamed to say that being with you for so long, I don't even have that much of faith and love on you. You love me so much that your willing to forsake your ego and is always willing to give in to me. After how I scolded you last night, any guy in your position would be damn angry. But you, you still sms me the next day like nothing happened.
I can't understand how one can love someone so much. I don't deserve it. But I hope I can be a better girlfriend to you from now. I hope.
Saturday, September 29, 2007 // 8:44 AM
My boyfriend and I have not been having happy conversations due to a certain feeling which is confusing my little head. He and I have been in a relationship for 2 and 1/2 years which means tomorrow is my 2 and 1/2 years anniversary. :) But I digress.
Until now, his parents does not know me personally and I am not sure if they actually know he has a girlfriend. His mom knows me not as his girlfriend but as a friend cause he told me about her tailoring shop and I went down to have a suit sewn. So she knows that I know her son but we are not sure if she knows I am his girlfriend. On the other hand, my parents know about us and some of my uncles and aunties. The thing which is bothering me is, why couldn't he let his parents know about us? We have talked about this before. He wanted to introduce me to his family last year but I refused as I wasn't ready. So we decided that he introduce me formally to his parents after he has graduated from his ITE education. But then, he can't simply tell his parents a couple of weeks before bringing me that he has a girlfriend. I thought to myself why can't he just tell his parents that he has a girlfriend and he will bring her home when the time is right.
He was upset cause I was bringing the matter up cause my colleagues was asking how come he hasn't introuced me yet. But yeah. When is the right time to introduce your gf/bf to your family? How do you start that topic with your parents? I know of someone who introduced her boyfriend to her family when she went on with her boyfriend for 2 weeks. If I am not wrong, they have been going on for 2 years already. I know of another person who brought his gf home the next day he went into a relationship with her. They dated for more than a year, is happily married now and is expecting their bundle of joy next month. I don't know cause in my case, I just brought my boyfriend home a month after I went into a relationshop and the weeks after kept spending time with him, talking to him and all.
There was no any formal introduction like "This is my boyfriend. I am going to marry him". I guess my parents just knew. All has been settled. I confessed saying I feel a bit more safer with him letting his parents know. I really don't know. Sometimes I feel I want this and later I feel I don't want. I have concluded that I am a very contradictive, stubborn and always confused person. This is my second relationship but first longest. Sometimes it feels like my very first. :)
I didn't know I am an insecure person. But in this relationship, I have learnt many things about myself. I am hot-headed, contradictive, hot-tempered, insecured, stubborn and madly in love with my babyboy. Sometimes which might not be good as I expect him to do things in my way. But he does it without complaining. Sighs. Time to time, he makes me feel more bad and stupid towards my actions.
Things have not been well at home which is making me irritated as I don't have any siblings to confide in. It's at this time when I really regret being the only child. But I have realized that instead of running away from your problems, it's better to just face it. It just ends the ordeal faster.
Finally, my cream that I have ordered from Gaya will be arriving soon. Hope it creates wonders for my face like it did for Gaya and her mother. Heh. Navarathiri is around the corner which means Thimithi is a month away which also means I will be putting kumbuduthanam which also means I will be starting my fast pretty soon. Thats a total of 3 which also means. :P
I hope this bad phase passes by soon!
Tuesday, September 25, 2007 // 1:47 AM
Something disgusting happened in my workplace on Friday. There's a toilet outside my office, something which looks like those ECP (east coast park) toilets. For the male and female, they only have one cubicle in it. One of my colleagues decided to use that toilet on Friday. Within 15mins, she came back running to my colleague and saying something. Thinking it was work, I brushed it off, but when my other colleague shouted OMG! I decided to go and see whats going on.
Apparently, there's this window near the cubicle and while your doing your 'business', you can actually see outside. When my colleague was in, she didn't see the window and while she was halfway through it, she heard the camera shutter sound and she looked towards the window. To her horror, she saw a handphone near the window. She screamed and quickly came out. She explained to my colleague that the handphone had a blue casing and the camera behind the phone was in a square shape. When Thana heard this, she told us that the cleaner uncle has a handphone with a light blue casing. We didnt know what to do. We told one of the supervisors but he didn't want to confiscate any handphones as this is a sensitive issue.
Soon, my colleague's bf came and the police also arrived together with my deputy director and all cause they all went for meeting. To cut long story short, in the end, the cleaner uncle admitted to taking the photo. He claimed that he wanted to take the photo to see who's making it dirty which is a total bullshit excuse because we rarely use the toilet outside.
I am not sure how is he charged and all but I shall keep you updated. It's so disgusting and scary man. Now going to toilet will never be the same again. Today I went to visit one of my secondary school classmate who has recently given birth to a baby girl. She's such a bundle of joy man. Damn cute! I feel like having a baby girl laaah!!!
Presenting you babygirl Afraaaaa!!
Sunday, September 23, 2007 // 4:59 AM
My weekend was great! Saturday was Lord Ganesha's birthday. My 1st boyfriend. Hehe. Headed to Little India to get things for prayers and had my lunch with parents and rascal Ashwin followed by bhajan in the evening.
Sunday was the much awaited day for me as I had planned a surprise lunch for my mom and baby. It was the post-birthday treat from me to my baby. But since my mom would be alone at home decided to ask her to join us. Last week was spent cracking my head wondering where to bring my baby as he has a huge appetite and he claims eating in restaurants is considered a waste of time. He doesn't understand how one can pay so much to eat something which occupies quarter of a plate. Hah. That's my boyfriend for you.
Thana was suggesting Swissotel's buffet which I was considering. Then it struck my mind that there's this seafood restaurant I wanted to try as the name is very catchy. No Signboard Seafood Restaurant. I guess some of you might have heard about it. I decided to make a reservation at one of their outlets in Vivocity. And after that I thought of bringing my baby to Sentosa's Tanjong Rhu beach. Firstly, the food there is simply sumptuous. The butter prawns is a must-try!!! I am an avid prawn lover and I am in love with the butter prawns there! The prices might get a little pricey for certain but good food are worth paying for right?
My baby and mom loved the ambience and the food. But the plan to Sentosa was postponed as we thought of spending our much-needed quality time alone at home. Parents went over to Ashwin's house and to Malaysia last night for an uncle's funeral. They will be back home today.
Didn't take photos of the food but managed to get a pic of the restaurant itself. Will be posting it soon. :)
I am glad you enjoyed the treat. :)
Sunday, September 16, 2007 // 9:50 PM
Firstly, I want to wish my baby a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
Hehe, I know I am a day later but who cares. The birthday was spent with the boy. And, it was goooood. Met up with him at 7.30pm! He used this day to come late, so that I won't scold him. He had a craving for pasta and I thought of bringing him to Pastamania but decided to go Swensen's. Before that we went to get for him a present. I wanted to get a ring and chose a nice one at Bits & Pieces.
But he went to 77th Street and got a cheaper one because the one I saw was too expensive. Grrr. But no! It's my baby's birthday and I want something which looks best on him. So I got the one he liked at 77th street, because he likes it. And I got the one at Bits & Pieces because he looked real nice with it. I hope you like it baby. :)
Bought cake and celebrated it at home. Due to certain issues, he had to go back home at 12mn. Sighs.
I hope it all ends well SOON! I am having a bad headache cause I wore my shades and wanted to see if I could see the sun. But because of my stupidity, I got a real bad headache. Grrrrr.
Hope everything goes well on Sunday.
Thursday, September 13, 2007 // 7:01 PM
I am blogging from work at 9.45am. I got no life. Oh, did I forget to add that I got a bouquet of purple roses from my parents? heh. Something different from the usual blue and red roses they normally give.
Finally meeting my baby today. Planning to watch Ratatouille movie. The movie reviews seem convincing enough. I am a bit bored and VERY sleepy. Plus, the cramps aren't good buddies to me at this point of time. This blog sounds monotonous. Who cares?
Anyone know of places that have good buffet? Baby's birthday is coming up and I have no idea what to get for him. Anyone has any good ideas what to get for men? Apart from the usual shirt and t-shirts.
I was seeing the Vasantham Star contestants biography at vasantham's website and I can't believe all the girl contestants are younger than me except for Sumithra. They all look so matured. Wonders of make-up?
Have any of you girls gone out with a single touch of make-up? Can you? If you can, then I must say that you're not afraid to show the real you. How many girls are able to walk out that door without foundation, concealer, mascara, eyeliner and etc? I agree I wear make-up but simple ones, no concealer and liquid foundation. haha. But ask yourself whether you can, walk out that day baring the real you and bare it with confidence.
I can't wait for work to finish!
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Tuesday, September 04, 2007 // 6:40 PM
The birthday has come and gone. The actual birthday was kinda interesting. I had work. I thought all my colleagues didn't know and I didn't expect them to know either. After lunch, i realized they were around my table but I thought they were there to just crowd around and talk. But no, Thana told me to sit at my table and I saw one of my colleagues lighting up some thing. And I realized, it was a slice of cake. They all stood around my table and sang me a birthday song. heh. I was like damn touched.
They had a pretty flower thingy. lol
After work, went to the temple with my baby. It was some auspicious event for Lord Ganesha. Ended up staying there till 8plus. Rushed down to AMK Hub cause baby wanted to get something but cldn't due to time constraint. Sighs. Again, rushed down to Causeway Point to meet parents and Ashwin in Swensens. While going back home, that kutty told that my father bought a chocolate cake. lol. It was supposed to be a surprise. wahhaha.
After that, followed by a tearful night with the boy. He ended up telling me a surprise which I wasn't supposed to know. But he had to, in order for me to go out with him. I know I am mean!
My family had actually planned a dinner yesterday. The plan was, I was supposed to go out with my baby to The Oriental to collect something from his uncle who works there. Then, my family followed by Ashwin's parents will be seated at the cafe waiting for me. Since the surprise was unfolded the night before, there wasn't any surprise. But its the thought that counts right?
My dad had planned with my aunt who works there earlier. We made our way down there and I must tell you, the place is absolutely mind-blowing. Apparently, it's a 6 star hotel. We made our way down to The Melt Cafe where my aunt works. Its a buffet kind and the staff there were wonderful. They had specially prepared so many dishes for me. I felt like royalty. hah.
Check out the heart-shaped watermelons. lol.
We ended up taking photos in our hps! Because no one brought camera!! Irritating right? But on the whole, it was definitely a memorable and enjoyable birthday. Love you all.
especially you, who tolerated all my nonsense and scoldings. :)
And thanks to all darlings who wished me via sms, friendster, calls and tags! haha. Thanks to technology man.
What about presents you may ask? My parents gave me presents throughout the month of Aug. The mp3 player was one of them followed by whitegold chain, pendant and ring. 2 chocolate birthday cakes, one at home and the other at the hotel. Last but not least, a GUESS wallet. Baby's present is still pending. heh. But he gave me a wonderful card. My aunt gave me a gold and orange shawl. The rest was $$$. :)
Lastly, I shall leave you with a very grumpy Ashwin.
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Saturday, September 01, 2007 // 8:42 PM