My boyfriend and I have not been having happy conversations due to a certain feeling which is confusing my little head. He and I have been in a relationship for 2 and 1/2 years which means tomorrow is my 2 and 1/2 years anniversary. :) But I digress.
Until now, his parents does not know me personally and I am not sure if they actually know he has a girlfriend. His mom knows me not as his girlfriend but as a friend cause he told me about her tailoring shop and I went down to have a suit sewn. So she knows that I know her son but we are not sure if she knows I am his girlfriend. On the other hand, my parents know about us and some of my uncles and aunties. The thing which is bothering me is, why couldn't he let his parents know about us? We have talked about this before. He wanted to introduce me to his family last year but I refused as I wasn't ready. So we decided that he introduce me formally to his parents after he has graduated from his ITE education. But then, he can't simply tell his parents a couple of weeks before bringing me that he has a girlfriend. I thought to myself why can't he just tell his parents that he has a girlfriend and he will bring her home when the time is right.
He was upset cause I was bringing the matter up cause my colleagues was asking how come he hasn't introuced me yet. But yeah. When is the right time to introduce your gf/bf to your family? How do you start that topic with your parents? I know of someone who introduced her boyfriend to her family when she went on with her boyfriend for 2 weeks. If I am not wrong, they have been going on for 2 years already. I know of another person who brought his gf home the next day he went into a relationship with her. They dated for more than a year, is happily married now and is expecting their bundle of joy next month. I don't know cause in my case, I just brought my boyfriend home a month after I went into a relationshop and the weeks after kept spending time with him, talking to him and all.
There was no any formal introduction like "This is my boyfriend. I am going to marry him". I guess my parents just knew. All has been settled. I confessed saying I feel a bit more safer with him letting his parents know. I really don't know. Sometimes I feel I want this and later I feel I don't want. I have concluded that I am a very contradictive, stubborn and always confused person. This is my second relationship but first longest. Sometimes it feels like my very first. :)
I didn't know I am an insecure person. But in this relationship, I have learnt many things about myself. I am hot-headed, contradictive, hot-tempered, insecured, stubborn and madly in love with my babyboy. Sometimes which might not be good as I expect him to do things in my way. But he does it without complaining. Sighs. Time to time, he makes me feel more bad and stupid towards my actions.
Things have not been well at home which is making me irritated as I don't have any siblings to confide in. It's at this time when I really regret being the only child. But I have realized that instead of running away from your problems, it's better to just face it. It just ends the ordeal faster.
Finally, my cream that I have ordered from Gaya will be arriving soon. Hope it creates wonders for my face like it did for Gaya and her mother. Heh. Navarathiri is around the corner which means Thimithi is a month away which also means I will be putting kumbuduthanam which also means I will be starting my fast pretty soon. Thats a total of 3
which also means. :P
I hope this bad phase passes by soon!
Labels: family, love
Tuesday, September 25, 2007 // 1:47 AM