I want to be that little girl in the picture above. So free, no worries, no evil thoughts, no sadness; only happiness, peace and innocence.
I am not a girl known for her inferiority complex but lately I might want to beg to differ that statement. Sighs. I am just so sick and tired of people commenting about my weight. And, it's not even people whom I know on a close basis. It is random people like taxi drivers, security guard, my neighbour, my neighbour's young brats kids, my dad's friend whom I am meeting after more than 5 years. Even today, the security guard uncle told if I lose weight I will look much better. Seriously, I am doing my best to lose weight right now, thannk you very much. But please, if you want to touch on a sensitive issue to a girl especially about her weight, the very least you can do is to put it in a very polite, concerned way. At this point, even if a random Indian national worker was to come and comment on me, I will be unfazed. Hah.
I had my dad's friend comment on me saying I should 'jangan badan' my weight as in I should take care of my weight and he said, " Oh look at my girls, they jangan badan their weight". Grrr. Like what the hell. Firstly, I hardly remember you much less your face. You don't meet me after god knows how long and within the first hour come and tell me this. And when my mom went to say I was offended, he told me I shouldn't be just because he's like brothers with my father and I should learn to accept it.
It's also even disappointing when you need someone to confide in or at least share your feelings, the person gives you a blunt answer. I guess it's just best to keep your feelings to yourself. If you keep telling people the same thing, they might just get sick and tired of hearing it. You might think they will be there when you are down. Haha. But I have my doubts now. I guess certain people do share my sentiments.
So that's why I decided to take it out by using the gym today. 45mins on treadmill and 15mins in those cycling stuff. hahah good. Of coz, I didn't run for 45mins straight but brisk walked. Oh well, it's just the beginning. :)
I hope it makes a difference :)
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Friday, January 11, 2008 // 6:36 AM